40 - whudahayul maayn. It’s patience boy, patience, they say. I just have to wait. I’ve already learned my lesson the hard way because of my stubbornness. However, you can’t stop me from getting excited over the day it finally happens. After all that I’ve been through, I only have high expectations now. I’m not giving this to just anyone. Till then, it’s all just a figment of my imagination.
41 - It’s typical. To sit around and think about the past, is just typical. To wonder about what could have been or what life would have been like if this happened, or that happened, is common. I’ve been doing just that lately. Coming home to San Diego for spring break just gives me that feeling. I feel like I’m breathing nostalgia, gasping for memories. It’s all I have left of some people. People come and go, what can you do?
42 - I’m thankful. I’m a little brat, but I still have all the love that I’ll ever need in my life, by my side. I don’t deserve a single bit of it, but I’m trying hard, to change for the better. Remember, God doesn’t help those who can’t even help themselves. In other words, how can God help you, if you don’t even show that you deserve it, or if you’re not even trying?
37 - hey yoou. im leaving soon, and i wanted to meet up with you recently, but you never replied back to me. oh well. whats done is done. i just want you to know, that though we might not be in close contact as we used to be, i’ll always remember the times we were close. im glad to have had you walk in on my life. and now that youve walked out of it, i just wish you the best in all that you do. i love you<3
38 - idk why, but youve been bothering me a lot lately o_o im sure theres a limit to what youre allowed to do to me. and obviously stepping over me is way past the line. ive become a pushover, but youll never change, i think. so for now, ive just backed away. wonder if you notice.
39 - HAAAY. haha. i love you two<3 thanks for everything. i owe you guys a TON. like no joke, a ton! thanks for supporting me in all that i do, no matter how bad of a bratty kid i can be at times. i promise you i’ll do well, and i will exceed all limits. to infinity and beyond right? hang in there, ive got a great future in store for you guys as a tiny gift from me. (:
32 - hi. i miss you dearly. but for now, id like to just back it up and give you room to breathe. i know i piss you off, i annoy you, and i bother you a lot, but you just never tell me. i just heard. oh you know. im going away for a bit, without telling you. i know i shouldnt but i cant find another way. ._.
33 - you! ugh. you take so long. where are you? hopefully i find you soon. my patience is running out. but i know i’ll run into you, the right one, someday. i just got to hold on a little longer. i have time anyways..but the wait is getting to me. but at the same time, i know the best will come if i just let it flow. see you soon!
34 - sorry. i havent been myself lately, ever since i got back from LA. ive been out of it, uninterested and not so enthusiastic. i hope im not drifting from you, but give me time. im just a little dazed at life right now. i’ll get back to you.
35 - suup. i still have three months till i move out, and i still have a lot of unfinished business. i want this transition to be as smooth as possible. i want to leave this city knowing i did well and that i accomplished a lot. i want to leave on good terms so i can truly start fresh at irvine.
36 - hi kuya. i love you. take me out soon! you owe me like three separate meals! and surprise me on a holiday i dont celebrate! haha. lets chill soon yes? (:
29 - you could have told me what was up. im not mad at you, im mad at what you did. seriously. if you didnt want to talk, then say so! i was in the middle of venting to you, and you just disappeared. then you come back later saying you didnt want to deal with it because you had your own problems.. okay..then why didnt you tell me earlier? i would have understood. seriously. if you cared, then you wouldnt have ignored me by leaving me waiting. i could have gone elsewhere.
30 - you. what. the. hell. thanks for so much. all i said was that i was just gonna finish watching whatever i was watching. geez. okay. fine, i admit. i didnt feel like talking to you because you always make me wait, but at least i told you before hand that i wasnt going to make you wait and that you could sleep. but whatever. i finished and told you and i thought you fell asleep. its okay, i know you were up doing other things. if you really missed me, why would you do this.. -___-
31 - okay. im sorry. im being a little lame right now. im not so great of a son. and for that, i deserve nothing from you. nothing at all. if i need something, i need to be deserving of it. and to be deserving, i need to work hard. im sorry. i’ll make it up.
26 - i dont think you get the picture. im hurt. you hurt me, and you brushed it off as if nothing happened. i really wont accept your apology for a bit because what you did was straight up fake. good you dont have a tumblr. i want you to find out on your own.
27 - i hate it when you interrogate me as if I left you, when really, you left me. you just came back out of nowhere after months of no communication, and you still want to call me your bestfriend? call me selfish, but where were you when i needed you? sure, im still here for you, but i just want to be friends, until you can prove something to me. prove to me that you can be a bestfriend.
28 - today, hopefully i proved something to you. i work equally as hard, or even more than everyone else, yet you rarely give me the chance. time is running out, and i really want to enjoy the rest of this. itll be the last time i can do this for the rest of my life, unless i do it in college, which i highly doubt. but thanks for today. seriously, no sarcasm intended. thanks for giving me the chance. thank you. (:
23 - i’ll admit it now. sometimes im really really irritated by you. i dont know why, but its like almost everything you do annoys me. then when i see you in person, everything is all fine. wth? i feel stupid. im a bad person. i just want to get over it, there are better things in life than getting jealous of you.
24 - so i guess you forgot. 2 years. yeah okay. its alright, we drifted anyways. no hard feelings. no sarcasm intended either. its my fault again anyways.
25 - youre really cool and all, but eh, i dont want to expect much. plus, if i did tell you what was up, everything would go awkward like it always does. i’ll just go with the flow, and leave it at that. :D
20 - IDK. i really dont know why the thought of you bothers me so much. its bothered me since seventh grade. WOW. right? okay middle school i was fine with you, i just didnt talk to you. freshman year, same. sophomore year, thats when it all peaked. i was so annoyed. junior year, well, i guess i calmed down, but eh, you were alright. after that, i think im okay with you being my friend. but idk, from time to time, im just annoyed of you. other times, im completely fine with you. OH WELLS. i’ll grow up.
21 - who are you? really now. i cant believe how long this is lasting. -_- i think the distance made it worse. i just want to be friends again. please…but im still not giving up.
22 - my neck hurts. im lazy. kbye.
18 -its funny how things work out, right? well, im happy that im long over you. :D but today was weird. T_T I KNEW youd ask him to go with you as your date. its fine, might as well go alone! i’ll meet new people instead. doesnt bother me, lolol. i am over you, and i dont feel anything anymore when i see you, thats a good thing, not to be mean. XD on the other hand, what happened to us being best friends too? wth. its okay. we dont see each other much anyways. why am i posting this? so i could get it off my mind, but dont worry, im not into you anymore.
19 - i dont know who to vent about in this one. how about this? i love my followers, ive made new friends, especially the followers ive met in person already! :D i text my followers more than my friend friends. XD thanks for the follow&fun! hope you keep enjoying my posts! :D
15 - so im tryna decide if i should tell you that were not bestfriends anymore. why? because nothing happens between us anymore. ever since “he” came back in your life, ive been forgotten. OH WELL. “the past is the past” and the past shall be forgotten. im letting go of you, after nearly 2 years, its about time.
16 - mmm. idk, ive been missing you lately, but i dont feel the same anymore. im tryna build what was last year back upp, back when it used to be so fun. idk, well see.
17 - okay, so im a buttface sometimes. EVERYONE has their moments. sorry for yesterday, but please be careful. me last year compared to this year: BETTER. good. thas a great accomplishment. i can only get better as i learn to not care so much and get so affected by things. lately, its been working. im doing better.
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