It’s really interesting how easy some things can actually be. Being so caught up with everything that goes on in life, we tend to crack so easily. We stress over almost anything and everything. But if we all just took a moment to breathe, we’d see how much easier everything can get. Sometimes looking at the big picture at first isn’t the greatest idea. It’s best to complete things in parts, you know, one step at a time. Sooner or later, you’ll build up to the big picture - your goal.
Adulthood is really kicking in. In fact, it’s kicking my confidence down the drain. D:
So I’m currently looking up internships in SD that I can do for the next three months for my major. Every time I find one and I look at the requirements, tasks, etc, I feel like I’m not good enough. I know it’s too early to tell, and I just started (well, I don’t start till this fall), but I don’t know. I feel so discouraged.
But Civil Engineering is all I’ve ever wanted. I’ve always loved buildings, road systems, structures, etc. Ugh, construction sites get me so excited too. Lol. Here’s the thing, you only “love” something until you’re put to the test. When it’s on the line, that’s when you’ll truly know if you’re cut out for something or not.
WHATEVER. I got this.
Here’s to the next three or four years of school! :D
Mmm. The cool breeze that flows through my bedroom window, the fresh air, the peace, the clear skies, the border life and everything else just make me love home so much. I love San Diego for so many reasons because of course, there’s no place like home.
I never thought I’d find a home away from home, but the OC almost hits the spot. Haha. I love the independence I have and I love how it’s basically the center of SoCal. Honestly, it does get boring, but it’s my break from SD. It’s a change in scenery, and it’s not bad at all. I’m still adjusting, but it’s already made it’s place in my heart, almost. HAHA.
What I really want to do, is live in LA someday, at least just for a bit. It just seems so awesome from all the trips I’ve made to visit my friends. There’s so much more to do than SD and OC combined. Idk, I just love big cities. Don’t ask me why, but I specifically like Glendale and Eagle Rock. Lol.
One thing’s for sure, when I finally have a family of my own, I’m raising my kids back in sunny SD.
no one who comes into your life is ever a waste of time.
Honestly, you should never think of them that way no matter what has happened in your life with them. Everyone you meet, no matter what role they play in your life, teaches you a lesson or two. It’s really all up to how you see it. As hard as it is to accept sometimes, people do come and go. People change, and even you change. Sometimes, the lessons that they bring with them are difficult to grasp, but let’s face it, we needed them.
Instead of being stubborn by clinging to the past, let go and let God. As you face the future, march courageously, while keeping in mind all the lessons learned. It’s time to prove yourself.
Seven years ago, I was baptized into the Iglesia ni Cristo, or Church of Christ, in the locale of National City. Haha. I can’t believe it’s already been that long. I was offered as a child in the church already, but the very baptism signifies much more. I can’t really put it into words on how joyful I feel inside. Let’s put it this way, in the words of the officiating minister, “Remember this day for the rest of your life.”
Seven years later, here I am, still strong, not only physically, but spiritually. It’s just such a great blessing. It’s an awesome feeling to look back to see what I’ve overcome through the years to be able to continue my race. This race really isn’t a joke.
As the years continue go fly by, just as the past seven did, I will only get stronger. Sure, life will get harder, but it is my faith that will push me. I made a promise to God that day, and I am going to fulfill it, come what may. I will fight the good fight, and I will finish my race. In the very words of my calling:
Today, my freshman year of college has officially ended, as a result of receiving my grades an hour ago. Ahh. I’m just so happy. It was sorta tough, but I made it. So much time, so much effort, so much sacrifice and so much more went into my first year of college. I’m glad to say that it all paid off.
From the moment I set my first step onto UCI, I had all the fear in the world inside of me. Jump nine months later and you’ll see a completely different me. New and improved. It’s always great to look back to see how far you’ve come. The first steps may always be the hardest, but it adds up. It all adds up to a greater victory. Ahh.
Of course, it wasn’t always perfect. It was, after all, my first year of college. My first year away from home, my first year of learning of who I truly am. There are still a ton of things left for me to learn, but I’m up for it.
I made it through one year, I’m confident that I also have the next three (or four if I take up my minor) ahead of me. There’s no stopping now.
Come June 2015, I’ll be holding that Bachelor of Science Diploma in Civil Engineering.
WELL, if you’ve chilled with me before, you would know that I just love to sit in my car and just talk to whoever I’m with. It’s like an unintended vent sesh. It can go on for a loooong time. Haha. Honestly, they’re much needed and it’s just so comforting to let all of my thoughts out. What’s best is the one-on-one talks I’d have with others. The connection you get is just so awesome. Ugh, I can’t even put it into words. But if you have the opportunity to, once in a while, it’s always nice to have an outlet to cool down. Mmm.
I’ve been sooo unproductive ever since I finished my freshman year last Tuesday. I have done almost nothing. Goodness. Lol. I think I’ve been cooped up in my house for a while now. No money, no gas, no outings. Sadlyfe. Yeeeah, I should get on that job hunt. I should also pick up on my workouts again. I just have no motivation at the moment. I honestly think I’m just waiting for my grades to come out before I actually start my summer. They come out tomorrow D:
Well, back to my low productivity. Church later though! lol.
I honestly don’t need much to be happy. I don’t ask for much, but when I ask for something it’ll be for something important. I live a simple way of life. Buuuuut I wish some people would understand that. Some people need to understand that not everyone is the same or comes from the same background in life. You can’t just expect me to do everything you want just because you’re able to. It’s not that easy. So please, respect my decisions.
I’m one to be very sentimental with dates. I can remember any date of significance as if it were my own birthday. I don’t have such awesome memory when it comes to recent things, but after a while, the pages come together, slowly recreating the story.
Obviously, I’m writing this because June 20th means a lot to me. Ahh. I can’t believe it’s been one year(:
When you first get into something, most of the time, you really don’t know what you’re getting into; you take the risk anyway. However, the amazing part of it is being able to look back and not regret a single thing. Sure, you win some, you lose some, but when you do win some, oh man, what an awesome feeling it is to experience.
Risk taking is actually a beautiful thing. For one, if I didn’t take this risk, I would so be missing out on so much. Don’t get frustrated if the risk you took didn’t get you to where you wanted. Risk isn’t everything. You also need to be hardworking to deserve the best, patient to achieve the best, and most of all understanding to be led to the best.
Hmm. I know I’m only 18, but whenever I’m around the CWS kids, or even Binhi kids at church, I just feel so old. Hahaha. Idk, I think kids are interesting, and I’m fine with them. I’m not one of those people that really hate kids with a passion. Lol. Certain circumstances in my life have just made me so caring towards kids.
Ahh. I think what I’m trying to get at is, when I’m old and settled enough, I just can’t wait to have kids of my own(‘:
Waaah. I think I’m really excited to raise kids of my own, and see them grow into what I helped shaped them to be. I think about how I look to my parents all the time. I wonder if they believe that their parenting skills can be deemed a success in raising me. As hard as it may be, it probably is rewarding to be a parent. Lol. Idk what I’m even saying, but yeah. Kids are awesome.
P.S. I want one of the following combos: 1 son, 1 daughter; 2 sons; 2 sons and 1 daughter. lolol. I have names already~