With the events that have taken place in my life over the course of the past week, I have been able to realize one major goal in my life. That goal is, to be independent. I’m only getting older, and I can’t always hold the hands of others to guide me. I’m sure they’ll always be by my side, but they have their lives to worry about as well. No more relying on others for my happiness. No more trying to impress others. No more trying to live my life according to the standards of others.
This is MY life, and I’m going to do ME.
Sure, it’s not bad to take the advice of others, but it’s ultimately up to you to decide what to do.
It’s a difficult task. It really is, but I’ll have to break off and grow on my own. I have to be confident. Be brave. Be wise. Be strong. Be faithful.
Poop. I found another San Diego blog, and I followed it. I follow about five San Diego tumblrs now. Man, oh man, I just spent and hour browsing through them, and I am homesick!
I know I visit home every three weeks, but I never knew how much I would miss it until I moved away. You never really realize how much something means to you until a change occurs in your life. Poop.
I was crying to get out of San Diego, but now, five months into the my life away from home, I realized how proud I actually am of San Diego. I brag about it ALL the time. I also realized how awesome my home is.
Quit overthinking. It’s just worrying over nothing. Most of the time, we’re just filling our minds with, honestly, stupid assumptions. I mean, if you want to know something, then just talk to the person straight up. Dont keep it in to allow your fears of the truth to eat you up. Besides, trusting someone is a huge risk. Be prepared.
That’s what the little boy at The Wedge in Newport Beach kept shouting out today.
Man, oh man, this little boy got me hella jealous.
The Wedge is an awesome place for those who just want to sit back and unwind from their fast-paced lives. I’ve practically been busy with school lately because of midterms, so I decided to head out to the coast today with my friend. We sat there, just to think about anything and everything. It’s really calming to just have some alone time. Even if you have all these things on your mind, it simply seems to just fly out in its calmest state.
Then, in the middle of this thinking session, this little boy comes out of nowhere and just runs into the breaking waves, and just jumps all over them, shouting, “YAY! YAY!” He did it for a good 15 to 20 minutes.
I smiled the entire time. Why? Because, he was just so happy, without a care in the world. He’s so young and has so much ahead of him, but at this moment in time, he’s just bathing in amusement. Man, I wish I was a kid again.
Now that I’m 18, I just have so much on my plate. It honestly just gets me so full that I simply cannot digest what life throws onto my plate. But I have to move on, I have to finish it.
My latest motto? “Work hard. Pray even harder. That’s how success comes about.”
I have a lot to do, but I got this. My hard work, along with God’s help will get me to where I need to be. I just got to trust and have faith.
But anyway, even if you’re older, and even when you’re all grown up, just remember, you can always have fun. Don’t drown yourself in the work set before you. Take a break! It doesn’t hurt! :D
WELL THEN. You have the audacity to ask me that? Haha jk. I don’t know. I’m very picky. I have to make it special you know..I know its cheesy, but I can’t kiss any girl and say it was a kiss. I want something real yo. I haven’t had a girlfriend yet either. Haha.
Today, I felt like I caught up with a ton of people. Scratch that, lately, I have been really catching up with friends. I’ve been really busy with school, but I got a wake up call in my dreams. Literally.
I need time management. The wake up call in my dream was a scary way to put it, but hey, it motivates me. It’s good to work hard and all, but don’t forget about yourself and those around you.
I called my parents today for the first time in almost two weeks. That sounds horrible, I know, but ugh midterms and all. Anyway, it felt reassuring to hear their voices again.
No matter how busy you are, always make it a point to show those that you love that they too, are important and that you love them as well. They’re your main support, don’t forget to back them up also. Besides, it’ll make the hard work all the more worth it.
I have this bad habit of getting sick and bored of people quickly. I can hold a great interest in the beginning with someone, but it eventually goes away as quickly as it came. I end up getting annoyed of them or tired of them so I just don’t bother anymore. I’m not going to tell them that I got sick of them because that’d just be rude so I think it’s better if things are just left unsaid.
Life does get tough at times, but it does not mean that your life is over. Just because you ran into a boulder, it doesn’t mean that there isn’t a way to push it aside. It’s not impossible. Have faith, trust in Him. Just show Him how MUCH you believe in Him and what He can do for you.
You can’t really say that to someone who really cares for you. Honestly, if it’s someone that I really care about, of course I’m going to worry. I worry because I care. To me it doesn’t matter if the person asks me to or not. It doesn’t matter if we’re arguing or not. It doesn’t matter if we’re annoyed of each other or not. If I worry, then just keep in mind that it’s because I care. If I care, then I love you. Come on. I’ll always be here by your side, even when you least expect it. If you’ve proven yourself to me, then why shouldn’t I?
You can only do so much for a person. Don’t get disappointed when someone does something totally against your views. I mean it is their life, right? You can tell them what you want to, but ultimately, they make their choices. Don’t get so hung up on the choices of others. No expectations, no disappointments. Just be happy that you gave your input, and had some sort of impact on them.