College: Week 1.
COMPLETE. haha. it wasnt so difficult after all! after having lived here for about two weeks, my anxiety is practically GONE. all my worries and fears have quickly subsided. it feels like home here, everything just keeps getting better and better. the only thing missing now is frkn home cooked food. -_- i have got to stop eating out, and i need to learn to cook ASAP. anyways, im only taking 12...
volleyball post #9182181872.
another to add to my collection. honestly, i was beginning to lose touch with volleyball and just completely drop all interest from it. the fire for my passion began to die. with that, you also lose concentration. you begin to mess up, and you suddenly dont care anymore. its a domino effect. but today showed me otherwise. i still have it in me. i may be rusty, but that doesnt mean im outdated. i...
If a girl can play volleyball, and play it like a beast, then UNF. back off, shes mine! if shes not a beast, its alright, i can teach her anyways. We’d pepper all daaaay. (:
Anonymous asked: '' i kinda just want my first to be my last, and my only.'' n'awwwwwwww :')
Anonymous asked: why havent you ever been in a relationship??
note to self: before putting so much effort and time into someone, make sure that its real. real as in, make sure youre just not jumping to conclusions with what you currently feel. what you currently feel wont always be the case. most of the time the feeling doesnt even last as long as you originally thought. you do so much work, then later realize that you dont feel the same way anymore. dont...
the good life.
right now, i believe that my life is just most certainly awesome. i dont know what to say about it, but im just so thankful. hm. lets see. the latest chapter of my life is the college life. im away from home, tryna live life as i adjust to all of this new change. college isnt so bad after all. sure, its only been a week of classes, and its probably gonna get more difficult, but i’ll make it...
i turn 18. haha. thats an important number right? my birthday is in less than two months. and i think id rather give back this time around, than to receive. (: id just like to show my appreciation and gratitude for those who have been with me all these years, and just say thank you. it shows great love too! idk what i’ll do for each person. but thats just a thought. haha.
i dont know why it has to be this way sometimes, but it really gets frustrating when someone just drops everything they had to do with you. how is it even possible that you can be so inseparable with someone one day, then not recognize each others existence the next day? its awkward. its even more annoying when there werent even any problems in the first place. i dont know how you do it, but im...
i havent been on tumblr as much ever since i moved to irvine, aha. i go on, but only for like 5-10 mins since im so consumed by college. college is awesome. let me tell you that. if you get homesick, itll only be the start, but other than that, just keep yourself busy, make friends, and have fun! thats all there is to it. im glad i made the choice to go to UCI. its not too far from home, but far...
EHI MY NAME IS JETHROJAY ORTALEZA NARCISO AND I AM FAT
Thank you for visiting us once again. You finally got me the ice cream you owe me!!! Mwhahahaha. So I seriously dont know where you’re taking me but its fine. I think…. we almost died three times but no worries….. and now, we are lost at a ghetto neighborhood woohoo. BYE! Love, Josh.
College: Day 3.
So we broke a world record. in dodgeball. lol. we had the largest dodgeball game. that was hella fun! but it dragged on, so it got annoying. then i ate out with anthony, kyle, and alvin at tapex. YUM YUM HOOOME. after that i got to go play volleyball with Irvine local. and ugh, hahaha. i did okay. im just rusty. i did better than my senior year in varsity, but i can always improve. so yeah! ima be...
College: Day 2.
I FEEL BETTER. well, uh, AWESOME. hahahah. ive been waiting for this day. lol. finally got to go to church again. thats how it is with INC kiddos yo. no matter where you are in the world, as long as there is an INC local congregation, or members of INC, youve got instant fambam. thats legiiit. i have made a home away from home. it. is. awesome. im speechless. or im lazy to type. lol. but yeah,...
in life, you come across tons of decisions to make. some decisions are made for you by others helping you out, while other decisions, youre well on your own. whatever decision it might be, be sure to carefully weigh it out. you dont want to face regret what you do. carefully analyze every.single.part. on the other hand, if a decision has been made, and you THINK it wasnt such a wise one, just...
i called home about half an hour ago. and honestly, i feel WAAAY better now. im only 100 miles away -.- but hearing their voice will allow me to survive enough for now. haha. im a happy camper. no more tears for now! i cried it all out on the phone! im a bit hungry, i’ll eat like a poptart. aha. then sleep. woo! i’ll get used to this college stuff soon enough.
College: Day 1.
well, classes dont start till friday, but i moved in last night. and man oh man, im so empty right now. i dont know what to say. well, i cried a lot yesterday, saying all my goodbyes “see ya laters” to all my friends and family. i couldnt hold it in. i mean, im leaving something that was by my side for the past 17 years of my life. you just cant simply forget any of that. thats a huge...
i miss home.
i miss my parents and brothers, where it was a real home.
IM MOVING TO IRVINE TOMORROW. D: college is finally here! idk lol. mixed feelings now, but i know i made the right choice. i know i did. i feel like crying, oh noooo. ): im gonna go sleep now, then tomorrow will arrive faster! D: and that will be me driving tomorrow. OH GOODNESS.
i wonder about the people who have drifted away from me. i can totally accept the fact that people come and go, but dont you ever wonder if you still cross that person’s mind? i wonder if they totally dropped everything and erased the past between us. of course, the past is past, and you cant just forget it. i just wonder how someone can just simply choose not to recognize you. i mean, come...
For when I am weak, then I am strong.– 2 Corinthians 12:10
livin' the life.
Dear Life, thanks for being so awesome. you arent so bad after all. sure, you might let me down at times, but i know youre just testing me, to ensure that i grow stronger. i know at times youll throw things at me that i seemingly cant handle, but its like what it says in the Bible, “For when I am weak, then I am strong.” dont worry, i wont let you down at all. i’ll endure it...
i just bought my first college textbook, and rented the others. good thing i found them at a lower cost. my physics book was cheaper, but not at all cheap. -_- and i still cant find my math textbook anywhere. plus i heard they changed it. -_- i have a headache from this. ay yi yi. lol. night yall.
5 days left.
im supposed to be packing. but am i doing it now? hmm… NOPE. :D
thats stupid. i hate it when people will go and degrade volleyball is nothing. its a frkn sport too! so why cant it get the same respect other sports get? oh, its a girls sport, youre so gay for playing. only losers play. wth? really? volleyball players can work as hard as, if not harder, than other athletes. we work hard towards a goal. we seek to improve our skills. we take pain. we have the...
its nice to get to meet and know new people, but the difficult part of it all is having to keep up with them. one thing i hate about myself is being able to get really really close to someone, but then just suddenly dropping the ball, by simply never keeping touch. its not like anything bad happened, its just that i cant keep up with them. i know, its okay not to talk to them EVERY single day. but...
its pretty awesome.
so like im always down for meeting new people, and most definitely for making new friends. what i love the most about meeting new people is when you just get this vibe. this vibe coming from them. and what that vibe tells you is that you already know you’ll go far with them. you’ll hella be the best of friends somehow later on. idk how to describe it, but its just like even though you...
the guilt trip.
im a suckaa for that! hella people are telling me not to leave anymore! but ugh man. i know i didnt make a bad decision. its my time to go out and explore the world right? lol. i mean, im only gonna be an hour and a half away from home guys -_- you all have my number and facebook. i mean think of it as a test. if youre really going to miss me, saying it is not as great as showing it. in the time...
and a couple more hours until i move out. dang man. it winds down to this. in a little over a week, i will leave home and venture off into the college world. i really cant believe its happening. driving around town, driving past familiar sights and landscapes, a wide range of memories just come rushing into my head. and honestly, i cant handle the fact that im already 17, and its been that long...
lol. not too happy about this! i hurt my hand playing volleyball yesterday, because for some reason, my timing was unusually off on my hits, i practically “paintbrushed” the hits, and i woke up with a bad left hand. i dont have sports tape, so i splinted it with orange cardboard, my favorite color. so yeah! i just got back from binhi visitation, and now im ready for the INC socal...
okay. heres my policy on it all. you do me wrong, i wont make you suffer. i wont make you pay. but all i want you to do, is realize. thats it. its that simple. like ive said before: you make a poor choice, if you dont correct it. you make a mistake, however, if you do learn and correct it. im the type of person to back away when something is up between me and others. i give it time. but all i want...
so it seems its all back to business. i told myself that i was gonna start packing, but i cant get myself to. the sadness is kicking in! ugh. lol. i dont even know what to pack since i cant pack clothes yet! meanwhile, my neighborhood is under a boil water order. -_- soo does that mean i cant shower either? i know you cant drink water unless you boil it, but idk. lol. man. i hope theres volleyball...
the power is back on in San Diego! after seven long hours of no electricity and no phone signal, everything is back to normal! im not complaining one bit though..during this time of “change”, i was able to bond with my family. i was able to spend time with them, no bs. usually id shelter myself away in my room, with the internet. but naw, today, i had fun. i actually had real talks...
Theres a fine line.
Theres a fine line between jokes and insults. I honestly understand when people will make a joke about me every once in a while, i mean one pun cant hurt me. I can handle it. But when you attack me, “joke” after “joke”, it simply becomes insulting. How do you feel anyways? Do you feel awesome degrading others, shoving them deep into wells of low self-esteem and holes of plummeting confidence? Look...
i miss having a crush on someone. :3 idk, i guess i want someone to work for. you know, i miss feeling giddy over the littlest things. like how you just get one single text from that one certain someone, and it just makes you want to jump around. or maybe how their presence can make you smile from ear to ear. its a great feeling, but too bad i dont even have at least that right now. single life,...
turned out better than i expected. seriously. even though the people with me may have thought otherwise, i honestly had a legit awesome day. ‘nuff said. thanks guys. _________ EDIT: muahaha. i dont feel like reblogging this, so id just like to say that i fixed things and its one less weight on my back. but anyways, i had an awesome time also while bonding with my little brothers. haha....