July 2011
not much.
i dont ask for much. although i dont ask for much, its pretty ridiculous to still not get what you want. but hey, you cant expect much either. this is probably why most of the time im unheard. i just sit back and stay quiet. if anything, i’ll just do all the work for myself. im used to it. doesnt bother me.
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so i looked out the window cus i was bored, then there was this cute girl walking her dog. MEH. lolol. i wanted to jump out of my window so bad.
i think i’ll go walk my dog more often…
June 2011
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i hate competition.
im not gonna lie. i get jealous real easily. i know, i sound pathetic, but i cant help but get frustrated if someone is working to pull someone away from me. the hell man. all i want is my loved ones to stay close. just a little love is fine, but when someone tries to snatch that from me, i go crazy. either share, or back off.
AWH YEEUH.
IM STILL SHAKING FROM HAPPINESS. :D
-_-
O: what do you guys wanna name your first son?
Me: Jason! with a Y!
O: lol why..
Me: Idk ive always liked it, and wanted it for myself.
O: theyll call him GAYson.
everyone: HAHAHAHAH.
Me: wow. thanks guys. thanks. -_-
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its not what it used to be.
of course not. things change, people change, times change. things will never be the same. but do you ever get the feeling that you just seem to be slowly losing interest in someone, but you just cant explain why? instead of someone drifting from you, its you thats drifting from them. at the same time, you feel like you cant stop it, not because you dont try, but because you cant force yourself. i...
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I'm stubborn.
hard as a rock, tougher than the toughest cookie. i’ll admit, i’m one of those people who have a hard time changing themselves. i’m the type of person that will always tell myself, oh man, i gotta change myself! i cant waste time! but then the next day you’ll see me doing the same old thing i do everyday. it gets tiring and annoying to see myself do this. i feel like such a...
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well then.
im tired of it all. this stuff is depressing and frustrating. i honestly dont know what to do anymore. i wish i listened to my parents. i wish i accepted what they wanted for me. i wish i had just stayed home instead of chasing my hopes and dreams. i dont even know what im saying. its only the start of the problem, and i feel like lying on the floor. its frustrating. when your life finally gets...
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honestly,
if you feel like a bother to someone, talk to them about it. dont back off because usually, when you back off to give them space, you will more than likely overthink it, and give it too much space and time. youll keep wondering, oh is this enough? nah, i’ll give it more time. at least i do. the more you do that, the more youre prone to drift away from that person.
so really, if you feel...
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youre not the only one.
always remember that. no matter how much you mean to someone, or how much someone loves you, just know that you wont always be the center of their attention. they have other people in their lives too. you cant just take up all their time so that they could forget about everyone else. thats just plain selfish and rude.
remember, if they love you, they will make the time for you. so dont be...
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ouch.
that killed me.
you wanna know what really hurts? when someone loses interest in you. the moment you finally realize that its no longer going to be the same between you two anymore. you try and try, hoping that you can save the bond, but the pieces just dont seem to fit. whats worse is when you know YOU messed up, and there isnt any solution to fix it. this is where the choice comes in: do i give...
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meh.
i dont know what im doing. im so lost and in a dazed state. i keep thinking about you and it stresses me out. terribly. its affecting me. greatly. i thought time away from you would work, but i guess not. so guess what? i miss you. talk to you soon. i love you.
(:
just had dinnaaah with the fam. finally. dinner with all of us together. mama, papa, and my three brothers.
i miss times like these. nowadays, everyones just on different schedules. theres no common meeting time. most of it is me thats always out though. meh. i should lessen it then. i mean, i only have less than three months before i leave for irvine. i wont see my family everyday. at least were...
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dont get me wrong,
i like myself and who i am, but im not at the point where ive started to love myself. honestly, i try my best to stay happy about it, because if you think about it, there are bigger problems in the world than your image. but some days, its hard. its hard to love yourself when there are images out there that taint your mind of what is true beauty. its hard to convince yourself that youre fine when...
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you just dont know.
so ive learned to really watch how i act towards others. its more important than you think, becauase you honestly never really know what goes on in the lives of others. just because they seem happy on the outside, it doesnt mean that theyre not going through some rough times. theyre just strong, and really good at hiding things. sure you might be joking, but dont add to whats already on their...
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32, 33, 34, 35, 36.
32 - hi. i miss you dearly. but for now, id like to just back it up and give you room to breathe. i know i piss you off, i annoy you, and i bother you a lot, but you just never tell me. i just heard. oh you know. im going away for a bit, without telling you. i know i shouldnt but i cant find another way. ._.
33 - you! ugh. you take so long. where are you? hopefully i find you soon. my patience is...
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fact #49.
when people are down, usually i tell them stupid stories of my stupid self of my stupidity of the past. your story options are: jeth and the fruit loops, yellow sea world, or recess bench.
yes. i know. but they always work in cheering people up(:
volleyball grind.
again. well you cant blame me. when you do the things you love, it relaxes you and relieves stress.
lates!
okay.
thats it. this is all ridiculous. wth is up with all of you. some of you tainted tumblr. wth is this. anon trackers, unfollower trackers, being able to see your followers stats, what.the.hell. ive let it slide for a while, but its honestly getting annoying. why do you want to track your anon, not like it makes the situation any easier. are you gonna drive to their house? o0o0o. unfollowers? who...
papang.
mom: jay, your aunt told me that your grandpa is getting weaker. he cant get out of bed anymore. me: wha..what.. mom: well, on the brighter side, its funny becuase they say he doesnt wear anything but formal clothes in bed now. me: SWAG. mom: what? me: nothing. i miss him.
well well well. down to the nitty gritty. i havent seen my papang in about 14 years. i hate it. i barely remember the trip. i...
marcobuttonup asked: what the flying truck is that? :O
worth it.
im so tired and over it. so tired of running into the wrong people. i want someone out there whos worth it. someone whos worth fighting for, worth going out of my way for. i dont need someone to take advantage of me, coming to me only when they need me. i never asked for any of that. sure, you shouldnt expect too much out of anyone, but it does eventually get to you. i mean, would it hurt you to...
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at the end of the day,
you get what you really need. i shouldnt be disappointed with the things that dont go my way. besides, life isnt meant to go your way, entirely, at least. its simple. if you want something, you have to work hard and be patient. once you get it, youll see if its meant for you or not. if it isnt, dont be down in the dumps about it. accept it, learn from it, and move on to the next. theres a lot of...
i just had to. unf.
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emptiness.
i hate it. i hate this empty feeling i have right now. the feeling you get because youre missing someone so much. its that time where you never thought youd be able to miss someone so much, but dayum, guess what? it happens.
when it does happen, it seems like all or most of your cares in the world is just focused on that one person. you cant even act normally. you lose interest in a lot of other...
well then.
okay sooo..
person 1 invited me to the beach tomorrow. person 2 invited me to a bonfire on friday. person 3 invited me to a bonfire on saturday.
2&3 at the same beach. and all three people know each other, yet are all having it separately. wow. sounds fun. hahaha.
guess whos gonna get awesome tanlines and a sandbox in their car…
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over and over again.
thoughts. replaying over and over again. the things that stay on your mind, for hours, days, or maybe even weeks. the thoughts that keep us up at night, tossing and turning. im annoyed, a bit bothered, and feeling a ton of regret.
do you ever get those moments where youre just like, what if? where you just wonder what could have or would have happened if things played out differently?
well, when...
stuck.
well. what can i say? im just one of those people who find themselves easily attached to others. i dont know, but i always find myself getting close to people real easily. and when you get close, you trust. and when you trust, you have certain expectations. but just know that all you want from them is not going to happen. give them room to breathe, and dont ask for so much. if you do, youll end up...
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moving forward.
honestly, life is definitely moving in the right direction now. and i love it. its slow, but so what? itll get where it needs to at its own place. i can say that all you have to do is work hard and be patient. hang in there. okay, so if its not the outcome you want, its really not the end of the world. i think things happen the way theyre supposed to, because at one point, itll be exactly what we...
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._.
i hate it when you call someone and you wait forever, and when you finally hear “hello?” you reply and stuff, but it turns out it was them being stupid on their voicemail. i now look like an idiot. THANKS.
OH YOU THINK YOURE FUNNY HUH?
i dont know what it is,
but have you had this strange feeling with someone, this one feeling that just draws you to them? like you dont know them or you barely know them, but you feel like you really have to be their friend or something? i feel like that right now. i feel like even if i barely know this person, i have to keep in touch with them. i just have to. i dont know why, but i just do. i think this is the start of...
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hm.
out of the roughly 3.5 minutes i had on stage, this is what they came up with:
okay. so the first one, im derpin it. hella. the second isnt so bad. maybe because its my side.. the last, well, they offered me multiple shots of this.
thanks to them. lolol.
hm.
so. an everlasting gobstopper does last a long time. you wanna know how i know?
i just found one in my drawer from two years ago..LOL. or was it three..
i remember exactly why i have it. my first best friend who moved to the philippines a couple years back came to visit one year. and the day he came back he was eating gobstoppers. so he gave me one. an orange one. my favorite color. at the time,...
you didnt even say goodnight. ):
k. im done.
:3
okie, its official. @austinyoshida is the awesomest ever.
hes my BFF and my UCI buddy(x he knows how to keep convos going no matter how boring it gets, he’ll always reply. plus, he knows how to keep you happy when youre down. this guy cares a lot. sooo go be his friend now!
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i dont get it.
youre all beautiful. you get me? theres really nothing wrong with you, as far as i know, and as far as i see. so be confident! you have no reason to hide. nothing to hide, but everything to show. welcome to the world, not everyone is going to like you. and if someone does bother you, then dont mind them.
if you really dont like yourself, then break it apart, and look at yourself piece by piece....
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its reassuring.
i know people come and go, but its nice to know that once in a while, someone can come up to you as if they never left. its great knowing that everything between us two is still going pretty strong and whatnot. besides, time gives us a lot of stories to tell. it almost makes me think i was jerk for assuming so much. but nope, this person actually thought of me. they never forgot.
