just goals. they say no expectations, no disappointments. but if you look at it a different way, then you could have a different outcome. dont do things in life expecting a certain outcome. what ever happens, happens. things happen for a reason, whether you like it or not. just set goals, try to find what you want. work hard to reach it. it might not come right away, but if its something you...
i hate it,
when im obviously mad and people still ask, “are you mad?” it just makes me even more mad. foreal? youre really gonna ask? i get that you care, but for me, its best off if you dont ask when im mad.
i honestly hate it when im the only one or the last one left behind. you know, those times when it seems like youre just standing there wondering, “hey what about me!” it just seems like no one hears you or sees you. its these times you wonder who is really there for you no matter what. if youre here for me, i dont want you here only when you need me, i want you here also when i need...
of school for only one hour. what are todays plans? lol. i want to go to the mall. AGAIN. but i have hw to catch up on. but then again, tomorrow im only going to first and second period because of our filipino heritage assembly set up and all that jazz. then i have to rush over to suhi. loool. alright. time for schoool. laaaaates.
IT FEELS GOOD.
we just beat olympian. AWH YEEUH. makin coach cry! HAHA.
her name starts with the letter M. <3 if you ask me later today, i wont answer you, nor will i tell you where to look. (x have fun.
ah. i dont think yall understand the joy in going to school so late. or later than usual that is. haha. all year ive been waking up on hour earlier to go to yearbook, which is an hour before regular school starts. lol. 640. T_T but now. im still in bed! and schol starts at 740 for this week! im so lazy. i need to get ready. im supposed to leave in ten minutes. i live so far from school compared...
im a bit pissed because i couldnt sleep. and i skipped volleyball practice so i could sleep. -_- oh well. at least i dont have to go to zero period today. seniors only have school for an hour today, tomorrow, and thursday. 739-839. then ima kick it at @mixedwell’s place with some friends. i’ll probably just knock out there before i have to go back to school and go to practice. ...
you decided to finally come back into my life. ugh. i hate it when people come back out of nowhere. they come crawling back why? im a last resort to them or a second option. they come back expecting things to be the exact same way they used to be, when in reality, they dont realize how much im hurting, and how different it is now. where were you when i needed you? i was always waiting with open...
looking back, i remember this one time where i guess i took a nap in the middle of the afternoon and woke up thinking it was the next day, so i started getting ready, dressing up, and eating my “breakfast.” i remember! i wore a red shirt with overalls and i ate pizza. sooo i remember my little brothers asking my mom why i was dressed up. so my mom said “i dont know.” then i...
talk it up.
communication. its one thing that can make or break any relationship. friendships, siblings, boyfriend/girlfriend, etc. without communication, no one ever knows anything. then we all know that leads to assumptions, and even more worries. even if its a bad thing, youre better off just telling them straight up. just. do. it. dont hide things in secret, youll even end up being fake about things. a...
i think youre cute. AND youre shy. oh my. shy girls fascinate me. lol. i dont know why. youre actually a girl i could see myself with. too bad im shy too. hahaha. i like seeing you everyday and just smiling at each other as we walk past each other. ugh. why cant it go past that..
on april fools i will try my best not to be fooled. i will be on guard all day.
im going to slap myself. because i always sleep late. as a result, i feel my next cold coming on. i might not go to school tomorrow. or i’ll just skip zero period. csts this week. thankfully. but seniors still have to go for an hour each day. -_- even if we dont take the tests anymore.. get up early to go to school, for ONE hour..WHY. alright. night guys. tomorrow my life begins. im...
is it just me?
honestly, it feels nice when once in a while someone really means it when they ask, “how are you?” yeah sure, people always ask it, but most of them dont really expect to sit down and talk. so it seems like everytime someone pops the question, i resort to saying “im fine.” and thats all itll ever get to. but deep down, im really looking for someone to tell everything to....
afternoon. bored. tired. lazy. what more? lol. i’ll start on my ap physics mock exam and hw at 430. -___- gotta start soon right? i mean, my future career does deal with physics.. then catch up with glee! and sleep early, but sneak a phone call or two. lol. but first, off to my private tumblr yo.
what bothers me,
it really bothers me when people have so many best friends. well, let me rephrase that, it really bothers me when people call so many people their best friend for no apparent reason. okay, sooo hes your best friend, shes your best friend, oh and that person over there too. so what does that make me? just another best friend i guess? if thats the case, then how is this even special anymore? you...
i just woke up half an hour ago from a call. i fell asleep at 7 because i felt sick. since i woke up, i ate a bit. ima go back to bed in a bit. i pray that i wont get sick. and i pray that something special, something ive been waiting for, will happen tomorrow. night guys!
my college application season officially ends today. final count: san diego state. uc san diego. uc davis. csu long beach. UC IRVINE<3 ucla. uc berkeley. 5 admits, 2 rejects. its all good. how do i narrow it from there? ucsd doesnt have my major. uc davis is too far. long beach is alright, but if im going away from home, i want a uc. soooo. if i wanna stay home, sdsu it is. but for...
what the hell.
why is everyone so heated today. everyone is frustrated, angry, and annoyed all over the place today. THIS CALLS FOR THE WEEKEND.
calc test is rescheduled for tomorrow. am i studying? NOPE. i just got home half an hour ago. in that time, i ate and had a good casual talk with my parents. oh well. :D well i did study half of it already. i should be fine. off to bed.
heey. i know youre tumblr stalking me again going to go through my tumblr, sooo guess what? i looove you<3 dont worry, your post is still in my drafts(x love, the best little brother in the universe. (YOU SAID SO!) p.s. you still owe me food. and i owe you a kill. :D
we beat san ysidro. 3-1. my only game so far as outside hitter this year.. i got good hits, but why did sidro have to dig them.. -_- well i hope i get to play outside hitter again. back to libero. (x all that matters is that i played my heart out. <3 at least coach said i was the only one who didnt make any errors today! then i reminded him that i had two service errors. lol. then he said i...
i gotta get off and study for tomorrows calc test. -_____- besides, tumblr is messing up. a lot. again. game tomorrow v. SAN YSIDRO. we got this. i get to play outside hitter AND libero tomorrow! >:] ima get some kills and digs! lol. i have three jerseys. which do i wear.. 21, 12, 6. then theres church after<3 anyways, have a great wednesday! lates!
i worry too much.
i know i do. i stress over the tiniest things sometimes, even when i really dont need to. but it happens anyways. what i worry over the most are people. i dont know what it is, maybe its because im too scared something might happen between me and others. maybe its my lack of trust. im too afraid to trust because all that ever happens is hopes rise leading to bitter crushing of trust. i would know....
oh aw. lol.
my little brother, the one thats a freshman told me hes going to the football meeting tomorrow. HA. thas cute. he grows up so fast (‘: HES TALLER THAN ME NOW. IM MAD. lul. a bit mad. but yeah. ima miss him when i go to college. hes my favorite out of all my brothers. he backs me up when i dont ask him to. hes hella good boy status. and “looks up” to me. and theres so much more...
show me some effort.
i hate trying for no reason. working for no advancement. hoping for nothing. if im going to use up my time, energy, and love over you, then you might as well show me that you can do the same back. prove that you are who you are to me. you said youd be here for me didnt you? but now, your word has no meaning. could you please try to hold this friendship together? prove to me that i matter. ive...
im just so happy.
dont you love it when you have those days where everything seems to be going along just perfectly right? like everything falls into place. even better, some good things come out of nowhere, especially if you didnt even ask for them. ah. as if it was some sort of surprise. it just goes to show that life does get better. if you work hard while also being patient, youll see that the best is yet to...
if you guys have snow days, why cant we have rain days? D:
treat her right.
im tired of seeing girls who dont get what they deserve. those girls that are with the jerks that push them around. sometimes it doesnt make any sense why people are with who they are, but thats not up to me. as much as i know, to the jerks out there, you better treat her right. she might be with you now, but if you keep it up, im sure youll lose her. she deserves way better. remember that there...
it looks like a lot of people i know got into irvine. well then. hahah. :D time for stupid hw. -_-
could you please stop running away from the problem? im trying so hard to fix it, but all you ever do is avoid it whenever i bring it up. even worse, you deny that theres a problem. what am i supposed to do? sit back and relax? how is that even possible when you give me such a bad vibe? cant you at least take the time to talk to me? but when we finally do talk, its always like, “what are you...
leading you on.
i dont understand why people have to hide things. i dont get it. i mean, the longer you wait, the worse something can get. its not just about you. dont forget about the person on the other side. the person whos waiting for you. the person who cares so much about you, but apparently you dont care as much as they do. sure, they might be leading themselves on, but at least help them out yeah? theyre...
you know that moment when you just suddenly want to slap someone? yeah. im feelin it right now.
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my tumblr sucks now. ive been sooo busy with volleyball<3
WILL DANCE FOR LOVE.
success. dayum! i was not expecting that many people. that must have been the hugest event we have ever hosted. ever. hahah. s’all good(x way better than culture night! but too bad we barely started this now that were graduating.. anyways, i saw A LOT of tumblr people. both those that i do and do not follow. lolol. oh my. to me its like, “you exist off the computer screen? D:” ...
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i miss it.
i miss what was once there. what we once had. even if it was just a friendship. scratch that, a friendship is not “just” a friendship, its much more. a friend is always ready in times of need. if i needed a pick up when i was down, you were ready to pull out your best jokes, even if they were corny as hell. whenever i was happy, you were there to share in my excitement. in my problems,...
it would be great if you didnt avoid me or ignore me so much. running away does nothing. informing me could ease the tension between us. thank you.
it just bothers me.
i really hate it when someone just “disappears” from my life all of a sudden. and i dont mean death, im talking about those people that just fade away from my life. i get that people come and go, but what hits me the most is when it happens for no apparent reason at all. if youre going to avoid me or even worse, exclude me from your life, then at least tell me why, please? it doesnt...
when i was a kid and my parents said “no girlfriends till college!” i honestly didnt think id last. but here i am, single and free as can be, with two months of high school left. lolol. :D