“I’ve used choir as my personal strength, whenever I’m down, I’m just waiting for the next time I’m set to perform, because there, I can tell God everything, and it sets my heart up for singing inspirationally and spiritually for the brethren.”—@jethrojay (via ilyjulizay)
okay, so i had like the randomest dream, but like almost everyone was in it.
So i was about to go out with @kamicosauce and jocelyn. i think we were going downtown and like right about when we were about to leave, i said something about timing, and john was all like, WELL i guess you cant go then! then he backed away and said he had a doctors appointment. lol. then i get all pissed because my plans are always cancelled. (somewhat true in life) so someone tries cheering me up, but i just go to my ap econ class. then, thompson seemed all pissed, which is unusual for me, because in real life hes a happy teacher. XD so then kyle/bestest got a call slip to leave, and so he said bye to me, and started walking out when thompson yelled at him and told him to sit. LOL. then it was nutrition break and i really had to go pee, and for some reason, the campus was my elementary school campus…so i find a bathroom, but i hella miss, because the wall disappears, and my pee ends up going outside, near some girls that i knew. LOL. wth. so i got out, and the bell rings, and im late for class, i see lara walk into ginoongs, and so does irish and @lookitzconrad. then i see camilo all late, running somewhere. lol. as i sprint to class, i see kuya marx and jb talking, then i snuck up behind jb and did our “knee” game as usual, so i scored in this dream. XD then i get into ms. mezas class on time<3333 but i woke up. ):
lately, ive been realizing how much my parents really care, yet how little respect i sort of give them. i mean i respect them and all, but i know i could do better. like those random times where theyre just tryna talk to me about my day, and then i answer all pissy even if everything was alright. attitude much? despite how much of a bad son i can be, they still put up with me, and yet, they still choose to “spoil” me. i dont deserve this. not one bit, yet they always love to keep me happy. i love them for that.
sometimes, we just need to take a bit of time to think about what our parents do, that way we can be appreciative - before its “too late”. give them no regrets. and you as their child should never have to regret doing better for your parents. give them the best, and only the best. dont just use mothers day or fathers day, use everyday.
live today without worries! after going through this week i realized that i make myself worry a lot, unnecessarily. ima cut down on that. so, dont stress over things that you dont have to! dont make small things such a big deal. life is life, what happens in it, is for you to decipher, that way you live your according to your needs and whatnot. it may sound selfish, but man is greedy by nature. that way you survive.
quit worrying! settle arguments now, mend broken relationships between you and all your loved ones, from friends to family. do it. hahah. it makes life much more easier and fun. (:
you know, it sucks how sometimes one step can completely mislead you and throw you off track. some mistakes are easily mended, but for others, the consequences follow you for a while and become a burden. what will you do when that breaking point comes? those split-second decisions? take a moment to think. take risks, but use them wisely.
even though he might not ever see this (thats what you get for not having a tumblr), idc, hahah, he deserves a post, like always!
anyways, happy birthday again kyle! i hope you liked my card, with the pop out flaming tennis ball! :D i hope that the future continues to bring you happiness. hahaha, because youre always so happy, laughing at the littlest things. hahah. that way you cheer people up really well, like me! your bestest! good job btw, its hard to get mad at you. ._.
so yeah, thanks for being the greatest bestest ever. haha. i hope you had a great birthday, now go buy those 17+ video games! XD
love, your bestest. :D
P.S. take care of my baaby! OR ELSE. lol. idk, but yeah take care of it!
sometimes i wonder what life would be like, if everything went my way. just think about it, what if you got every single thing you wanted? what if you made all the decisions, and no one stopped you? what would the world be like? obviously, things happen for a reason. and by that i mean by the reasoning of what is correct and what is incorrect. even if you got your way, not everyone would be satisfied. what may look good to you, might be appalling to someone else. i have to learn to appreciate what i have and to stop looking for more than what is given. humans may be greedy by nature, but you can certainly control it.
its been a while since ive really had a crush on someone or was talking to someone. its really really boring to be honest. sure i feel so free from the chains of heartache, but like i always say, cute couples are getting to me! oh well, i can sit here and wait. till then, i’ll be bored, yet amused by those cute couples.
into senior year. so far, so lame. im not even kidding. to be honest it feels like any other year, just like when i was an underclassman. okay sure classes are different, grade is different, but wheres the fun? the first day or two was alright and cool, but after that, it just faded. i feel like im in the middle of like sophomore year or something..
i like all my classes and teachers except for 2nd and 5th periods. those are the lamest classes. ever. lol. health and ap physics. we dont even have a teacher for ap physics, and it makes me sad, knowing that my dreams could be crushed here, and now. i’ll get through it somehow…
I saw you yesterday -__- I think, LOL! But i wasn’t sure if it was you … SO I hesitated LOL
DOODE. LOL. i saw you like ten times, even if i knew it was you, i didnt know what to say to you. HAHAH. “hi?” its pretty easy for me to tell its you, i mean, come on now, district binhi! especially when you guys were seating us for choir, and you were walking down the stairs, i wanted to say something, but held it in. XD
today, you have all that you love. tomorrow, well, dont you ever wonder whos gonna be there for you till the end? whos gonna stick it out with you forever? i do. a lot actually. ive realized, though you may have your loved ones today, things happen, and things change, and sometimes, all thats left is you.
sometimes, you might find it tough because you never thought you would have to go through something alone. you never imagined that someone you trusted so much could stoop so low, and crumble the trust between you two. and it hurts.
but you know what? its not that you wont need others to survive, but start being independent. no one is gonna walk your every step all throughout life, no ones entirely going to be with you. it might take a while to get used to, but just be careful where you place your trust, take risks, but be wise about it.
hahah, i had fuun. missed school for an entire day and stuffs! the singing was epic. XD id love to perform in a huge group like that again. :D there was a ton of people, and i felt like crying because i was so happy. HAHA. just knowing that everyone there last nice, made a sacrifice to come from all over socal (and one norcal. LOL.) just to celebrate on a tuesday. (: i got home all late, and today i was tired, but it was worth it. hahah. idc if i missed so much in school yesterday, He’ll make a way to help me through it, i got hope and faith. haha. OH OH, and on the candid camera thingy, THAT WAS THE BEST LOLA EVER. :D
anyways i saw: nikki, kristin, danica, chanelle, julie, and a bunch of others! haha. theyre the ones i talked to though, everyone else i saw, like gutz, well, i just saw, nothing more. XD
great day, great day. im ready for 97th! LOL. (:
P.S. best part: BALLOOOOONS! who has a picture of it?
lol. im really sorry to the person i saw yesterday, that recognized me and said hi, but i didnt recognize you. ):
im really really sorry! tell me who you are so i can apologize to you! D:
girl: HI JAY! me: hi? girl: do you remember me? :D me: … my friend: no he doesnt haha! me: whyd you say that?! girl’s friends: aw…. *walks away…*
i felt horrible! im sorry! i feel stupid. -_- i have a feeling youre one of my followers though, haha, because i dont use anything else but this and aim! so, whoever you are, im really really sorry that i embarrassed you! ):
ugh. they really are bad. its not like “im ugly” its more of personality stuff. i dont like it! everyday i always tell myself to change for the better, but i end up being stupid, and falling over, and over, and over.
im not gonna make this meaningless, but hey! doode, when are we ever going to meet up? -_- because you know, climbing trees is fun. HAHA. or used to be. i grew up. tree climbing? for kids. LOL. well, uh yeah, you run around a lot. haha. why is it everytime i blog about you, idk what to say? haha. laame. im getting hungry. go buy me food now. just not seafood. :D
kyle’s birthday card. for my bestest guy friend ever. lol.
@aquindemarco’s birthday card. hes just that cool. haha.
soo i already finished @kimtngo’s letter, it just needs to be mailed. (:
so far ive made a birthday card for ant, conrad, lara, jasmine, alvin, ryan, john. im on track. haha. i decided to make people birthday cards this year so i wouldnt seem selfish because i loved my 16th birthday last year. :D
as for the letters, these will be the first two ive ever sent to people i havent met. ______
lol. so i opened it all excitingly, then i pull them out and put them back in right away. ): i felt weird looking at pictures of myself. LOL. so an hour later i pulled them out again and examined them. in my head im just like “oh. they looked much better before.” its as if i see every flaw about it rather than every positive thing about it. haha, but im slowly starting to like it. i guess. :D
ugh. i keep changing my mind..about where to go after high school.
freshman year: i really really only thought about getting into uci and berkeley.
sophomore year: uci and berkeley still.
junior year: first semester - usc all the way. second semester - i changed my mind to ivy-league schools. then i realized i cant live that far from home and pay for that much, so i narrowed my choices to back home. so usc again. then more money thoughts, narrowed again. ucla or berkeley. then my self esteem went down, so i said irvine again. then i thought of home, so ucsd and sdsu.
senior year: last week i thought of the east coast again. -_- this week, im back to LA choices…
stress, stress, stress.
i can do this. i got to prove myself. and to do that, i got work to do.
then took pictures and whatnot, then went to see the CWS Pasalamat. its so cute seeing all the kiddos have their parents buy new clothes and dress them up really nicely for the occasion. then after, they always take fam pictures and get their goody bags. oh how i miss childhood. lol.