hang in there.
i got this. i got this. i got this. i cant give up now. theres too much at stake. theres too many people that would be let down. someday, someway, all these hardships will be worth it. i can do this. i really can. ive never given up, and i will NEVER give up. i know they all say to be patient. its been a long time, but i will still hang on. i want to show everyone that im stronger than they...
how people celebrate their “firsts” or other things on tumblr. examples: “its mah first halloween on tumblr!” whats different? “reblog if this is your first summer on tumblr.” GO OUTSIDE. “OMGOSH. MY FIRST EARTHQUAKE post on tumblr.” disaster strikes. i’ll stay in the house, while on tumblr. “i had a tumblr on 10/10/10.” at...
how people celebrate their “firsts” on tumblr. examples: “its mah first halloween on tumblr!” “reblog if this is your first summer on tumblr.” “OMGOSH. MY FIRST EARTHQUAKE post on tumblr.” “i had a tumblr on 10/10/10.” KAY. i get it. lul. the list goes on. i guess tumblr means that much? nothing bad, but i just find it funny.
one bad habit i have is how i procrastinate. the thing about me and time is, i dont like starting things or ending things at a time where the last number isnt 5 or 0. SO. seeing that, i told myself id start at 230, but when i looked at the time it was 232. so i said that id start at 235..but now its 250…LAME.
lol. my first debut today! = success. I WAS SO NERVOUS. i might have peed my pants, because i had to give a speech. lul. i had previously written my speech but i didnt feel like using it, so i winged it and said what came to mind. it turns out that what i said made people laugh. :D but i got repetitive and started stuttering. hahaha. after giving that speech, i was all good. anyways, HAPPY 18th...
alright. gonna go get ready for my first debut! lul. my first one, and im part of the court.<3 im a bit nervous for my speech but its only 30 seconds long. at least. then. tons. of. food. YUMMAY. kay, off to shower, then dress up and then pick up precious, then go to the store real quick, then debut! :D have a great saturday! (: P.S. i hope you guys survive tumblr’s maintenance. lul.
for the people that have so much potential, but everyone around them fails to realize it. so instead of using their potential, that person just drifts off, and eventually loses inspiration to go on trying. example: the guys (or girls) that girls (or guys) seem to look over because theyre “too nice” or maybe “too shy”, etc. if only people appreciated what is right before...
so i went to open gym yesterday. D: i missed like the first 234324 open gyms, because I HAD A REASON. lul. losers. well anyways, i must say, i get intimidated easily. but what do i have to be afraid about? i already got through this two years ago, and found out that i can do well with a little patience and a ton of hard work. i wasnt gonna return this season, but im deciding, i might as well. i...
about being filipino. let people be proud of who they are. -_- dont downgrade others just because theyre not filipino. im filipino, but you dont see me going around telling every other culture that they practically suck because theyre not filipino. have a great day y’all.
what i want.
when i go to bed at night, i just want to be able to simply lay down and drift away into sleep. what i dont want is to jump into bed, slipping away into deep thoughts, consuming me with tears as they slide down my face. i just want to go to sleep at night knowing that the next day will come quick. when i wake up in the morning, i just want that great feeling, being confident that today will be...
the same things,
just keep you crying. what to do. what to do.. i hate going back to the same subject over and over again. i just wish i could get over things and move on.. youd think that after thinking about the same subject, hundreds of times, that youd run out of possibilities in your head. but i guess not.
no one really cares,
about the things that matter the most anymore. everyday, people just take advantage of what they have. they get so attached to the belief that things will still be the same tomorrow that they just seem to forget about what matters most to them. its not that they dont care, its just that they dont worry. but when the time comes, that when that thing that matters most disappears, then they regret...
its been a while since ive blogged about my day, so how about it? lul. the day was great. haha. weather was better. lets skip to volleyball! so i left school at 130ish. it felt weird because i was driving alone, away from school during school hours. hahah. anyways! i got to olympian, and waited with the tennis kiddos since the school bus took soo long. then i saw @-lovecakes again!<3 hahaha. ...
if you read my tumblr,
then you would know all about me. FALSE. dont assume that just because you follow me and you see certain posts, that you can simply judge me right away. the things i post on tumblr arent even close to being the me that i am in public, or friends, fam, etc. theres way much more to me than what’s on here. tumblr is just here for me to pass time. and most especially, one of the reasons i got...
is just horrible now! first summer never arrived, then out of nowhere fall was hella hot, then it started pouring rain days after days, then it was freezing cold, and now its hot and DRY. the weather hurts my head and nose.
belle-lavie asked: Hi jethro, Thank you again for greeting me and handing me a card, that was nice of you! :) and haha I know, my shyness.
happy birthday papa! :D dearest father, lul. happy happy birthday! even though youll never ever read or see this post, i hope you had a great birthday today. you do so much, yet as one of your four sons, i fail you miserably. you work so hard, yet, being me, i realize so little. i know we dont understand each other sometimes, but its all good since love overcomes it all anyways. im growing up,...
"dont worry about it."
is it bad to worry about someone you care for? i get kinda annoyed when people tell me this. but, as much as you care for someone, you have to respect their right of privacy. dont try to force them to tell you things. theyll tell you when the time is right. maybe theyre just not ready to open up. the best thing you can do is to be there for them, no matter what.
University of Southern California.
-krischen: USC. That’s my dream right there. My goal. All my stress and hard work goes towards this. I may not get in right after graduating from high school but I WILL GO THERE SOMETIME DURING MY LIFE. i remember junior year when this was all i ever talked about. <3 sadly, im not applying there right away. too expensive. but some day, i too, will attend there. (‘:
those times. those times where you really liked someone. those times you really liked someone, and did everything just for them. those times where you didnt have a care in the world, except for that one special person. its like you did everything to catch their attention, and yet nothing caught their eye. you know youre doing everything right, such as being their crying shoulder, or maybe their...
its as if,
no one really cares about what you have to say nowadays. i mean sure, there are people there, but i feel like when i try to tell them things, things only get awkward, and for some random reason, we drift away.. and the people who are supposed to care are the ones youve known forever. but in reality, i find it easier to talk to someone who doesnt know you, theyre sort of neutral on you, because...
to be honest,
sometimes, i get scared of the real world. just thinking about how im on the edge of entering it stresses me a bit, although it’ll be an adventure, i just wonder how things will play out. dreams soon become reality, and those sugar-coated lies fall apart. i dont know whats out there for me, but i hope that when i look at this at least five years from now, i hope i can say, “the real...
why does it seem like everyone keeps posting the same post twice..
okay day. act’s, then stayed home all day. then church for a bit, then i finished my personal statement. YES. finally. anyways, i skipped homecoming. oops. oh wells. right now i have a hella annoying cold. im out. have a great sunday! :D lates!
when someone replies,
with “uhm okay.” i just want to slap them. idk. ahahaha. just makes me feel like what i just said was worthless. lol.
ugh. dont get me wrong, im somewhat of a lenient person on things, but eventually, i get tired of saying “i understand.” the first few excuses were okay, but now you come up with excuses as if you got them out of a book. im tired of understanding. when can you ever understand me? call me selfish, but its only natural that after a while, my needs should be tended to also. its so easy to...
im not going to homecoming tonight, and now im slowly getting the “why arent you going?!” texts..
while you grow up, you just learn that there are certain things that you dont need to hang on to. with the amount of things we have to worry about, theres simply no time to handle everything because it gets overwhelming. so, you learn what and who to let go of. you learn what really matters and what really is worth your time. you learn whos going to be there and who isnt. it wont be a physical...
one of the times,
when i laugh the loudest, seems like im the only one laughing and when something isnt funny. then everyone stares at me in class. AND, the one time where im the only one laughing, my laugh comes out all short and weird. i try to play it off but sometimes people hear it and copy it. LOL. soo annoying. D:
act mall. yes. i know. even though i just ranted. lul. hc. NOT. (; now im sitting here. im supposed to be doing laundry. like an hour ago. im waiting. waiting. for someone to go to the mall with me as planned! eh. personal statement time then i guess. -_- well. i got a postcard from ucsb. guaranteed admission. why is it somewhere i dont want to go..
Fact: I hate going to the mall.
the only reason why i would hate to go to the mall is because of all the people that just stare you down for no apparent reason. im just tryna hang out with friends then all these other people look at us as if we hella dont belong or something. its the number one thing that annoys me about the mall. its like an asian to asian thing. no offense. i mean everyone else doesnt stare me down like my own...
it seems like my followers keep deleting their tumblr..interesting. aha. compared to a year ago, i think tumblr is a little less exciting, but i still stay on forever. just not as interested. i wont ever delete it though. it holds too much.
so. i really dont like you. im sure! youre cute and all, but idk. i really wouldnt mind being with you, i mean, i like you for you. i threw my pickiness aside for once, but then again, i didnt want to keep going. D: i like how over break we talked a lot, and i got to know you, and i even told you about my super secret crush on you from a year ago. haha. but little did you know that during break, i...
idk. this means a lot to me. :D kuya: oh, so are you his follower? janine: hes my best friend! kuya: oh, well, hes my little brother. (‘: to you guys it doesnt make sense much, but to me, it means a lot. youd have to know my life story to get it. even the people in this convo dont get it. :D
DISNEY DAY tomorrow for thursday’s spirit day for hc week! Y’ALL KNOW WHAT IMA DO. of course buzz lightyear. haha. im just gonna bring a bunch of buzz stuff because i have no shirt. ): anyways, night! minimum day tomorrow!
clash day 2010.
so..as usual, they have clash day at school. and since this is my senior year, i figured that i might as well do it this year. but ugh, this morning was supposed to be a clash of clothes, not a clash of emotions.. let me tell you, i HATED this morning. horrible morning. too many things at once going wrong. im fine now, but ugh! that was so lame! but eh, at least they all got better. well, one of...
i’ll wait like 10 minutes while everyone announces what tumblr did. T_T lulz.
____________________: you probably ____________________: heard it ____________________: over and over ____________________: but trustme ____________________: im not going anywhere jetheroojayy (8:56:16 PM): haha. jetheroojayy (8:56:18 PM): made me cry.
eye to eye.
growing up, were surrounded by new experiences every single day. eventually, it gets overwhelming because we dont know how to adjust properly. growing up, we think we know everything, when actually, were barely beginning our lesson. growing up, most of us feel the need to be independent. but really, we always need help. there are two people who put up with us the most, and we take advantage of the...
its raining! and there are snails everywhere. -_- i.dont.want.to.kill.another.one. that crunching sound of their smooshed shells just kills me a little inside. lul. but tonights a great night for hot cocoa. no hw.<3 just college apps. yaaay. i got admitted to uc davis because of elc program. im not even going there..i’ll look into it though. OH. i will sleep well tonight, the coziness...
i really do. i dont know what its going to take to convince you, but i just want to let you know that i really do care. and as friends, we have to be there for each other, so thats what im tryna do, but i guess i dont try hard enough. even if it isnt my fault, everytime you fall, i just feel like im not good enough as a friend. maybe i dont try enough. but then again, growing up, you do realize...
out early. ima finish up studying for ap econ unit exam! its a good thing i love econ<3 anyways, twin day tomorrow! too bad, my twin wasnt who i planned. well its all good because junior year kyle and i matched for ten days straight. unplanned. I BET (if i could) that you and your bestest cant do that! MMM. cant beat us. (: but my twin is oscar, who is still super cool because hes a really...
school. picked up luna. OH MY. lul. uhm. hc formal assembly, i was about to tear up because thinking back, we were only freshmen, and now were seniors..so fast. only like 7ish more weeks in this semester. then we had that one french sub in econ. lolol. uh. then ms. meza said i was the only perfect score all morning. :D i thought it was hard. -_- mmm. physics! man. haha. im happy i understand it...
making decisions. seriously. it pisses me off when i try to weigh it out, i cant decide. but when i do decide, i think things out first, and try to make sure everyone is satisfied. but you know what? i hate it when everyone gets pissed at you for tryna make a decision, EVEN THOUGH you had them in mind while making it. then its all your fault. blah blah blah.