WELL, finally, its friday. haha, this past week was waaaay less stressing than the past two weeks. it was a good but cold week hahah. today we also got grades, and yay, i got my straight a’s finally. i gotta keep them up for 6 more weeks and pass all my finals so that me and kuya alvin can tie for #1 third year in a row. :D in art, im starting to gain more confidence, usually i think i cant do the assignment cuz its art, but now i realized im actually good. hahaha. i like my still life so far. meanwhile, yesterday was a vent day, but i chose not to go on tumblr cuz i had work that i procrastinated on. so bestest and other people imed me and were cool about helping me. thank you bestest! <3(: to calm myself down when im mad or sad, i go outside to walk and think, or i sit on grass and look at the views of the area, or i swing on swings, juss to get peace. one of these days, me, gj, ant, and bestest are gonna sneak out at night and go swing on swings. anyways, on the topic of venting, being smart and overachieving has some flaws too i guess but like overall its great. earlier this week i was telling some friends how i should lower my standards for a day juss to see what its like. behavior wise would be bad boy, but i dont think thas cool anyways. haha. academically, its nice to be smart and all, but its stressing cuz youve gotten yourself so used to staying in the high ranks that a simple b+ would hurt you. lol. then everyone asks you for help, it seems endlessly. its nice to help people too, but people always compare themselves to smart people. typically the day before a huge assignment is due, i get a ton of IMs asking if i did my hw and how i did it. my answer to them is always “yes, juss do what you do.” cuz honestly i should not be the basis of their academic achievements its their stuff not mine. to add on to that, some people, not most, which is good, only talk to me to get their assignments done, cuz i usually get high grades, making me do all the work…well only one person did this week and it only annoyed me this week cuz someone was talking about “using” someone, and i realized it. but its all good now, you know. ms porter told us that when you wake up in the morning you go to the mirror and say, “screw you, im stronger than anything in this world.” her birthday speech almost made me cry, lol. i could connect in a way. anyways, this week ive been talking about colleges lately too. i dont know where exactly i’ll end up, but i know im staying within california. i’ll apply to like harvard and all juss to see if i can do it, but i wont go to it. lol. right now in mind, i have berkeley, ucsd, ucla, uci, and usc in mind haha to reach my goal of becoming an architect! maybe, i’ll design your house one day. i owe a lot of houses already, hahah. if our plan falls through, ant and anthony and bestest and me will go to uci and buy disneyland season passes. :D hahahahah! so the girl i like, is one of my bestfriends too. ive liked her for like a year now. a couple of months ago i got over it, but now i like her again, but she doesnt know. jt says i shouldnt have done that. hahah. it really is hard for someone to like you when youre stuckk in bestfriend mode. ha. well her birthday is coming up, the day before mine. so i decided, imma make her a card, the second card ive ever made for someones birthday. haha, and imma put a tulip in it, cuz its her favorite. then imma get her what she always wants, powdered brownies. haha. lastly, imma try to get her a huge disney store doll, preferably dumbo, pooh, or tigger. haha. well thas all for now, out!